Our walk with the Lord and our relationship with Him is literally a lifelong journey. He continues to work on us, with us, challenge us, every-single-day of our lives. A process that some at first glance, appear to handle flawlessly. But in reality, it can be a painstakingly difficult process with lots of growing pains.
So here I am, at Square 1.
Square 1 for me is where and how I am to worship and serve the Lord. Something that others know with certainty and have no doubts about. For me, it is very difficult and riddled with doubts and fears. In 2016, about this same time of year, I began to feel the pull back to Catholicism. 2016 wasn’t the first time since I have been away that this has happened. No, since the late 1990’s to now, this has happened more than I can count.
It always starts the same way, which I didn’t realize until last night. It starts with me feeling a strong pull to the physical Church.
Here is one of the churches in my cluster. When I drive past it several times a day, I can’t help but peer through the doors from my car and in my heart feel so physically drawn, it is quite frankly, overwhelming. It’s not like I grew up in this church. The physical church I grew up in is of no comparison.
Contrast this time from previous ones, I am so much more determined to stop this cycle, with the help of the Lord, of course.
Some questions I am going to settle…
What did the Christians in the first several centuries believe?
Is the Real Presence real?
Authority, is it important?
As a Protestant, why do we trust the Bible from the 1600’s but nothing before?
I am excited to embark on this journey with maturity and a determined spirit to settle this once and for all.